Sunday : 15/05/2011. VISIT HIM!!!

Salam. wah2 bukan main lg eh aku! lme tol x update blog. haih! bz final lg. mcm2. hihi. haaaa. xbyk cite lah entri kali nih coz waktu nih aku g lawat ekhem2 kt pulapol.. ahahahaha. perghhh! angan2 nk jd inspektor trus brubah. yelah seram kot aku tgk rules kt cne. mmg lah nk develop jd polis yg bgune keh!. hehe. mmg best lah. sonok sgt! die pun sonok bile tau aku dtg. so, pesanan aku yg terakhir kt die. "please, jgn sia2kan penantian aku". tuh jer. ehehe. kne keras ckit. lau x naek lemak. die pun risau gk aku kt luar nih. bebas cne cni. ahaha. alah, cm x bese lak. pandai2 lah aku jge diri. org sekeliling aku ramai yg tgk2kan aku. eh, yeke? ahaha. hurmm. mse otw nk balik, sedey ade. gmbire pun ade. aku dpt tau plak die kne extend 4 month utk gantikan training die psl kes virus tuh..so die bukan balik bulan 7 but bulan 9 kot! how come! hurm..xpelah, aku pn dh gtau die. aku jnji akn tggu die balik. aku hrp die saba lah kt cne. k lah, tuh je yg aku nk coretkan...pe pun best of luck 4 him. i'll wait 4 u my dear.

Genap Umurku 23 Tahun. Amin...

24 April 2011

Makayh tercinta,

Tarikh dimana anak sulung perempuan Idris bin Dawood dan Hayati binti Husin menjangkau usianya utk ke 23 tahun. Huh! Mcm x caye je anak drg nih dh besa panjang. Snang cite aku sndri pn x caye. Rse mcm diri tuh masih umo 20-an. Ahahaha. Pe pun hr nih aku bersyukur ke hadrat Allah dgn limpah kurniaNya aku dibesarkan dgn elok oleh makayh aku smpai la aku dh mmbesa cmnih skali..pd makayh, ayon x terbalas budi makayh yg tlh besakan ayon slme nih..ayon akn berusahe sgguh2 utk capai kejayaan dn amik alih tugas utk jage makayh pulak..akk syg sgt2 kat makayh..akk sntiase doakan kebahagiaan utk keluarge kite..amin..

Muhammad hilmi,

Tepat jam 12 a.m…Terime kasih krn sggup berusahe dptkn fon tgh mlm nih semate2 utk kontek owg..ssh pyh b mengusha kwn2 kemut b tuh utk wish besday owg…ye, mmg owg akui b ta penah miss wish besday owg. N u always be the first man that wish my besday. I know…rse sgt2 teharu..tankz sgt2..engtkn just ignore sje sbb owg tau keadaan b kt cne cmne..pe pun sgt2 terime ksh kt b..jgn pnh rse bersalah if thn nih xpt smbung besday owg. Bg adiah kt owg..B ade kt dlm tuh pun dh kire hadiah yg besar bg owg..engtlah, kite sme2 akn bina mase depan kan? Ape2 pun b jgn risau. Owg oke kt cni..time kasih utk kate2 smngt b td..owg dh x tekate ape dah…pecayelah owg syg sgt2 kt b…love u…

Abam2 and Kakak tsyg,

Tankz wish besday rin…pe pun rin akn sntiase engt kowg sume..sbb kowg lah sumber rin utk mtk nasihat, dn meluahkan segale tekanan yg ade. Hnye kowg yg phm rin cmne…terutame yg paling dekat n phm psl rin abam razz, abam mumi, kak vio, kak fara…kowg lah tmpt rin ngadu..x lupe jugak pd mummy ct and dady yot ats segale kate2 nasihat, smngt utk kejayaan rin…x lupe gk kt badik kambing..ehehhe…mmg spoting bile bab2 sekolahkan rin…ahaha. Nyway, even rin knl kowg 1^st dlm YM…tp kowg lah sntiase jd tmpt ngadu rin..sntiase phm…bangkit n jatuhnye rin hnye kowg yg tau…rin sgt2 terharu sbb wlupun rin xde abg n kakak…tp Allah dh kurniakan rin abg n kakak yg best….rin bersyukur sgt2 ditemukan ngn kowg sume…tankz sgt2…love u all…

Kawan2 gile mse ijazah,

Nih merujuk pd kwn2 gile aku…chub,Julie,amie,ain dowemon,syaza,min,palah,alin sumenye lah..kowg lah yg sntiase wt aku gelak jd org gile bile dlm kelas. Aku beruntung kot pindah kelas then jmpe kowg..mule2 kekok, lme2 dh x malu ape dah…aku bahagie ade kowg…yg sentiase support aku..x kire ape pun…seyes aku kate, kowg is the best…stdy sme2..sedey beramai2, stress bersame, enjoy pn sesame…xtau cmne aku nk handle otak aku bile ngn kowg…ngeh2!..then, tankz a lot kt my best buddy yg always support me even I’m in hurt…sentiase bg dorongan, kte2 smngt kt aku…he’ll be my best buddy ever n ever….nyway, love u all..

Kawan2 diploma,

Nih merujuk pd dewi, nana, sha n kwn2 aku yg lain. Tankz..even kite dh separate n wt hal masing2 we still connect each other. Yg kawin, kawin…yg keje. Keje, yg teruskn sisa2 info.mgmt teruskan, yg lari kos cm aku nih pn teruskan ape yg kite pilih…aku ckup bahagie bile stdy ngn kowg sume..on time..update n segalanye..sbb tuh aku bleh tegolong dlm kalangan DL kowg..ahahah. pe pun tuh lah 1 anugerah mne kite sme2 kejar mngejar, cmburu, utk capai target kite…sume tuh mmg kenangan bg aku…wt dewi, pecaye lah..smpai bile2 pn ko ttp kwn aku yg terbaek..sbb ko sorg je yg slme nih bantu aku…love u all…

Kawan2 sekolah teknik,

Tankz kowg…even kite ramai yg dh bepecah..n lupe antare 1 sme lain..n sumenye dh kawin…aku xkn lupekan persahabatan kite..nakal bersame2…sonok!!! love u all..

Kawan2 sekolah bese,

Wlupun kite dok 1 kampung..asl dr tmpt yg sme…tp pndgn kite berbeza…wlupun kite rapat kejap je tp aku beruntung knl kowg..sbb mse nih lah enjoy n nakal lebey!!! Ahaha. Love u all…

Seangkatan nye lah,

Tankz pd spe2 yg sudi jd kwn kpd airin eida….airin : nme YM diberi, eida : nme reality diberi…..

Dapat Surat Dari Orang Jauh..:D

Salam...ahahaha..jeng2..mst ttnye2 kn aku dpt surat dr sape..tibe2 lak kan..ahaha..hmmm...aku dpt surat dr konstabel muhammad hilmi md. taib...tebal jugak la surat die..setelah mggu hr tuh aku hidup dgn penuh lukee..pedih..jeles sume nye lahh..akhirnye persoalan yg aku nantikan terjawap sudah...snang cite aku summarize kn isi surat tuh...aku bakal jd suri hidup die..bukan as a girlfriend, awek ke, ape ke...but as his WIFE...die akn kotakan janji die pd aku..aku pun tepanjat gk...tapi x sangke Tuhan dgr doa aku mlm aku sengsare mngadap segale ape yg pmpuan tuh cite kt aku..seyes! cmne pun, aku akn ttp tggu die balik...so mnde nih terang2 akn nampak...aku balas surat die...aku xnk bukak cite nih dlm surat tuh...lau nk ikut hati...ugh! mmg aku cite jerk sume..tp aku pk balik...nt akn rusakkn mood die, semangat die kt cne nt...so better i keep it! sekarang, cume tggu kepulangan die dn segale2 nye akn terang, jelas dan nyate...tankz for that letter! at least i know ur condition at there..mish u...:^_^

erkk..okeh! fine! believe ur self!

Seyes...msuk nih aku xtau bpe lme aku tanggung sakit nih...rse cm aku alami mcm die alami kt cne..pe pn aku doakn die sehat..aku sntiase rindukan die...sgt2...okeh fine!aku dh mkn ubt..n ubt aku dh hbs...haih..cmne nk ngadap hr strusnye nih...penat laaaa....kdg2 rse cm lain sgt..sbb aku sowg2 jerk...x berteman...sakit aku, aku je yg tahu...seyes aku teringtkn die..psl die aku akn cube pk kn positif...hold it as long as aku leh thn..mnde nih akn setel after die balik..just need to be prepared..tuh jeee..aku x kesah la pmpuan tuh add aku..tnye kabar psl M kt aku...wlupun aku tpkse pretend aku dh betunang n bakal kawin thn nih..smpai cmtuh aku nk pertahan kn hbgn aku ngn die..sgup aku melukakan hati sendiri sbb die...sgup aku berpura2 chat ngn pmpuan tuh pretend yg aku xde ape2 ngn M...seyes..sambil chat tuh begenang air mata aku menahan...rupenye drg dh declare sblm M masuk pulapol lg..demi die aku sgup jd hipokrit...hipokrit dgn perasaan aku sndiri..pedih2 tp aku still go on kn jer...seyes ckit terkilan pn ade...aku xtau la if die akn pilih pmpuan tuh...if ye aku doakn die bahagie..aku pn dh pesan kt pmpuan tuh jge die baek2...aku still teringt peristiwe aku hmpir2 nk kne langgar kt highway dpn umh aku nih semate2 nk pegi beli tpup n kol pulapol cne tnye keadaan die..seyes...risau aku xyah cite...sgt2 berganda..mrh2 aku but aku still pk kn die...sbb...haih ntah laaa...bile jd cmnih...niat ht nk je aku undurkn diri...sbb one more..uhhh bkn one more but dh byk kali aku tpkse tahan n hadap sume nih...aku hrp die x brubah...yee mmg aku terkilan bile pmpuan tuh cite sume nye...cite yg M ade kontek die mse kt pulapol...I thought that i'm the special one yg die engt slalu...but at the same time die kontek pmpuan tuh...n unfortunately die engt number pmpuan tuh...so..aku xpyh la teruje sgt if die kontek aku pn...if die x dpt kontek aku pn, that girl still ade...dr ape yg aku chat ngn that girl, truely she really love him...how come..begenang jatuh air mate aku..dh mcm air sungai dh...smbil naip smbil tuh la air mata jatuh...erkkk...nk kte penat..sgt2..n smpai x tekate dh kot penat aku...aku menunggu..org tuh pn menunggu...but the truth is which one? adakah aku yg lapuk, suram, huduh n sbgnye nih yg slme nih dgn die wlu ssh nk snang or adakah that girl? to face the fact that girl tell me she's already being M gf is really hurt me much..eventhough i pretend like there is nothing to worried about..but deep inside my heart its like a bomb in my heart..tambahan pulak ngn keadaan aku yg kritikal nih menanggung sakit yg dulu pnh die kne...seyes...bile mende nih nk hbs? till the end? smpai aku btul2 dh give up? xpela..aku sntiase doakn yg terbaek utk die..ape2 pn aku akn cube kuatkn diri kt cni...i'll try..

erkk..aku alami sakit yang dia alami dulu..+_+

Dh dekat 3 minggu aku batuk x henti2...ubt aku dh amik...pe lg tah batuk nih nk..nk suh aku cabutkn ank tekak nih ke hape..seyes aku penat sgt nk tahan...siang oke lagi aku bleh bla coz aku sibuk lyn mnde lain...tp start mlm jerk..start aku nk lelapkn mate jerk mnde tuh serang kaw2 kt tekak aku...gatalnye xyah ckp la..mengalahkan kegatalan aku nih..rse cm sblm tdo tuh aku nk cabut dulu anak tekak nih simpan dlm botol then tdo dgn nyenyak..seyes bile aku teringat aku kne mnde alah nih aku teringt kt someone yg penah kne sakit cmnih..but aku lah org yg teman die tanggung sume tuh...but in my condition now, aku tpkse tanggung sendiri sume tuh...seyes penat...sakit..pedih sume ade....plus aku dgr lak kes kt cne, hope he'll be fine...haih npe aku still pk kn die? aku rse nk balik je mggu nih..aku x larat la...huh~~ makan ape2 pn still aku akn muntah kn..so baek x yah makan ape2 kn...nt mmbazir lak duit...erkkk...+_+

Satu2 Jadik...Hurm..=_="

Salam...hr nih...aku x bpe sehat...tekak luka and seleseme...esok aku ade academic visit...area KL..tp aku x larat nk berkate ape2 coz seyes tekak aku pedih sgt2...ni kes babikiu kelas la tuh...haih..smpai batuk x henti2...aku dh jd cm die lak dulu..x hnti2 batuk...sgt2 sakit...smpai luke dh tekak aku...then tmbh lak kaki aku luke yg x seberapa nih...=_=" auchhh...tp xleh dibandingkn ngn luke kt hati yg aku pendam....td hbs kelas aku balik then aku rehatkn diri..aku tlelap sbb pnt...aku xpt tdo spnjg nih..asik batuk jerk...haih...pastu dlm lme jugak la aku dpt call dr adik laki aku...die bgtau kak lang masuk spital sbb excident..jari die putus..aku x pasti jari kaki or tgn..aku x tnye lebey lanjut..pastuh aku kol ayh n mak aku..drg kt spital...adik aku kne tolak pie spital lain...adik 2nd last aku angkt...aku tnye kt die cmne kt cne...mak aku dh nanes2 dh...aku tnye cmne ley jd..ade bdk rempit cibai tuh leh lak merempit kt c2...skali xleh kawal effect kt adik aku...Fuck! drg tuh mmg xde keje la...siap la kowg...ape2 jd kt adik pmpuan aku, aku crik smpai dpt...kowg engt kowg leh lps dr keluarge Idris..tggu la pe kte ayh aku...spe suh crik psl..aku xde la burak ngn mak aku td sbb aku sure lah yg die akn nanes la..die tuh mne leh dgr anak2 die cmni...ibu kan? So aku decide tomorrow aku try call tnye cite lg..bia drg calm down dulu...mtk2 la sume ok...amin...k lah aku toi2 x larat nk cntinue...makin hr makin suram pejalanan aku..but, untung coz aku still ade kwn2 yg leh support aku...yg leh hepikn aku mase aku tgh sedey...for him : owg hrp b sehat2 kt cne...dont forget me..i'll always remember u...miss u en.muhammad hilmi...

Speechless

I can’t believe what you said to me

Last night when we were alone

You threw your hands up

Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can’t believe how you looked at me

With your James Dean glossy eyes

In your tight jeans with your long hair

And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?

And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again

Oh boy you’ve left me speechless

You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

And I’ll never love again,

Oh boy you’ve left me speechless

You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me

With your half wired broken jaw

You popped my heart seams

On my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can’t believe how you looked at me

With your Johnnie Walker eyes

He’s gonna get you and after he’s through

There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated

But I’m a loser in love

So baby raise a glass to mend

All the broken hearts

Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again

Oh boy you’ve left me speechless

You’ve left me speechless so speechless

I’ll never love again,

Oh friend you’ve left me speechless

You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

How?

Haaaa-oooo-wow?

H-ooow?

Wow

Haaaa-oooo-wow?

H-ooow?

Wow

And after all the drinks and bars that we’ve been to

Would you give it all up?

Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we’ve been through

Would you give it all up?

Could you give it all up?

If I promise boy to you

That I’ll never talk again

And I’ll never love again

I’ll never write a song

Won’t even sing along

I’ll never love again

So speechless

You left me speechless, so speechless

Why you so speechless, so speechless?

Will you ever talk again?

Oh boy, why you so speechless?

You’ve left me speechless so speechless

Some men may follow me

But you choose “death and company”

Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh

SHIT..Hate Diz Part!!

Why??? why me..why i must pretend that everything is ok...no disaster after he leave me for his training...but the disaster come smoothly to me...effect my heart..totally...really2 hurt now...why i can read her status? why i feel that i'm a person that shared love from one man???why??? i really hate it..hate it very much...i try to ignore diz feeling but it always appear in my mind..try to pretend dat i'm loyal to wait him come back from his training but at the same time everyday i have to face the gurl that "WAIT FOR HIM TOO"...the gurl that need his love, the gurl hope dat he will love her..the gurl dat already have a feeling towards him...the gurl that wait him to come back..finish his training...arghhhh! why??? please, dont play like diz...i hate it...i hate it..please, stop it..dont act me like a doll...can easily to be manipulated...huhh...please...i dunt want take it anymore..please i'm in hurt right now..really2 hurt...i'm so sorry b...i try to forget it..forget the gurl that loyal to wait your love right now just like me...i don't knw if my heart can stand it anymore...i'm so sorry...very2 sorry...=_="

Haih..One More! =_="

Salam...hr nih aku still dlm keadaan selesema..arghh...sakit la idung aku nih..nt sok melecet...ishhh...mule la kulit idung tekupik2...hr nih x byk sgt nk cite...huuuu...toi2 xde mood bile aku trnmpk something tuh...aku still tbyg2kn psl mne semak posting nt..haih...btul ke kptsn aku nih..btl ke aku nk tarik diri...Ya Allah berat kot aku nk wt sume tuh....tp leh ke aku tanggung risiko tuk sume tuh...ape2 jd hati aku yg betambah parah...haih....dh la...lmbt lg nk tgu die hbs..bia la aku lalui hidup aku nih cm bese...haih..tmbh lg 1..sok event klaz kensel...keciwe kot kami2 yg excited shuping td...hurmm..tp xpela nxt time wt la...huhu...klah..aku nk tdo dh..aku penat+seleseme teruk nih...miss u en.muhammad hilmi..t.care there...don't forget me..the truth is i'm sick of crying..tired of trying..yeah i'm smilling but inside i'm dying...

MooD DemaM+JiwanG..=_="

Salam..hr nih hr seleseme aku..haih…berair2 dh hidung nih..bdn aku lemah2…aku toi2 x larat nih..otw nk demam…haih…rindu nye kt die..aku betul2 x larat…dpt update kejap jerk nih…letih..huuuu…sambil2 aku layan sakit nih, tibe2 ayt2 nih tepacul lam otak aku..dh lme x berpuitis..When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you. The hard things that I can’t forget that I miss the way you used to hug me, I miss the way you used to kiss my lips, but most of all I miss the way you held me and my heart. I really miss you... I just want you to know that, when you miss me just look up to the night sky and remember, I'm like a star and sometimes you can't see me, but I'm always there. I think of you with every waking moment of my life and dream of you with every dream that I have. I can't forget the times we have shared together in the sadness and the happiness, the failure and success, the simple hugs and those tender kisses. I don’t know when it will go to happen again, seems like a part of me was gone. I miss all of that, I miss you B... I miss us... Having no communication with you for awhile is like drinking coffee without sugar, it's not complete or should I say my life is not complete when you are not here beside me. I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry. I guess I’m just missing the old times...the old times that we usually spend time in many place...When I see that place, my tears drop without I realize it. Days go by so fast, not a day do I not think of you. Missing you is the hardest part of my days, my days without you...miss u en.muhammad hilmi…

Haih...How I Want Control This Feeling..=_="

Salam..today, I can’t sleep…but, its ok dat I have settle my individual esaiment..alhamdulillah, my presentation about policy got excellent from it…so, nk tau npe aku x leh tdo? Coz I have read minah nih punye status..die posting ke srwk…so, what the hell mende tuh kne mngene ngn aku?? Sbb nye, aku nervous if amy been posting to srwk…coz this lady ade perasaan kt amy..haih..aku tau die xde ape2 feel kt pmpuan tuh..but, aku tau 1 hr nt akn ade perasaan tuh mcm sebelum2 nih if die jauh dr aku…sbb aku xde sisi die..die mmg cmtuh..lau hati die sunyi ckit, so akn ade smpingan kt hati die…hurmmm…if diz happen, if die kne posting kt srwk, I be prepared to resign from diz relationship… I don’t want take a risk towards it...bia la aku terluke dulu drp aku terluke yg amt sgt kemudian hr…aku x sgup..enough….i’m really tired about it..id diz happen, I’ll try to make him hate me more…so ade reason npe aku xmoh ngn die..bia lah sumenye nmpk slh aku…as long as he can survive without me…aku tau pmpuan tuh leh bahagiekn die nt…nk2 pulak die “sedare baru” yg convert ke Islam..mybe amy leh bimbing die…hurm..npe tah aku pk smpai cmnih skali..maybe diz time aku btl2 berhati…aku xpasti…aku takut sbnrnye…aku trauma…sbb aku dh byk kali disakitkn…abam razz kte doa2 lah moge die posting area semenanjung…ntah la, aku xtau npe aku rse x confident ngn sume tuh…haih…npe nih???????? Please la,luputkn perasaan nih…tp salah ke aku nk rse curiga cmnih skali..???? aku nekad, ini keputusan aku, lau die kne posting srwk, aku akn tarik diri dlm hidup die….hurmmm…aku akn cube….k lah, aku btl2 moral down hr nih…smpai bhse pn jd mix…daaaaa…=_=”

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p/s : miss u en.muhammad hilmi.

Stress..Stress..Stress..=_="

Hari nie xdpt tdo..esok aku ade presentation policy..huh..hope bejalan ngn lancar la sok..hr nih ptt nye aku dh tdo awl..tp xleh lak..puas pejam mate nih…hmm…rindu kt ank org tuh..pe kaba die kt cne eh…hope die sehat…mggu nih adelah mggu paling bz aku…selase ade test policy..seyes aku ngaku, aku x pt jwp…haih…pastu hr rabu lak si jambu ngn kak lin kol..ajak g photoshoot kt karangkraf..hurm spnjg aku kt cne not bad..besh gk la…dr muke aku yg xde taruk ape2 nih tlh disolek dn di olah oleh make over..penat mmg pnt..tp sempoi la dak2 nih..photographer pn ok…yelah pestime..newbie mne tau nk pose2 nih..tau pose syok sendiri jerk…lalalala…pastu dh setel photoshoot sume, hr2 seterusnye aku sebuk nk setelkn csc n policy..bapak ah..dh la partner aku lain2 kn..so, aku dh cm terumbang ambing cne cni..haih…cne pgl, cni pgl…acane? So, aku decide nk setel kn policy lu coz jumaat hr nih aku dh present weh…lalala…then, nxt week selasa ade babikiu kelas n kuiz OB hr rabu..huh…hr nih penat sgt..hu3…so, aku amik kesempatan nk update blog nih coz dh ttgl bpe hr lak kn…hehehe…sok kne jmpe en.cerewet lg..pagi2 bute lak tuh..haih…sumenye sbb nk wt system tuh…penat la!!! Ade jerk yg x kene..haih sabar jela…sedey nih sedey tau…k lah, mate cm dh luyu jerk nih…hehehe..bye2…miss u en.muhammad hilmi..^_^

Hurm..A Nightmare..=_="

Hari nih..aku tdo awl..aku tmmpi mnde yg x sptt nye aku mmpi..haih…penat sgt ari nih..ngn otak tensen coz de test yg mmg aku x phm mnde lagi..haih…nsb la aku dh sedar...terus g basuh muke, bukak buku stdy policy..haih..hr nih aku mmpi aku bwk die balik umh jmpe family belah mak aku…perghh..mmpi tuh btl2 wt aku x keruan…family belah mak aku xley terime die, tmsuk la mak aku sndiri…haih…cmne eh, mak aku demand sgt lau bab2 nih…npe die pk ank die nih complete sgt? die tau x aku nih dh terjatuh cinte ngn org lain..bukan pilihan mak..mak, tau x sbb pe akk asyik cite psl somak jerk…sbb akk nk bg confident level mak tuh tggi yg die ley jage akk..tp npe mak still nk mention org jauh tuh?die dh xde kn mak…die dh jauh..lost kontek pn…akk anggp die cm abg jerk..x lebey, sbb hati akk kt somak sowg jerk..mak, wlupun somak tuh bkn citarasa mak tp lau mak nk tau die lah yg slme nih bukak ht akk..wlupun die byk kali sakitkn ati akk..xpe..mase still pnjg agi..ade mse akk nk buktikn pd mak..pd ayh, akk tau ayh pn nk yg terbaek kn..yelah, akk ank sulung…nk2 pulak ayh kawin dua..mak pn mst btl2 begantung hrp dgn akk kn..hmm..sume ibu bapa nk yg terbaek kn utk anak2 die..tp pecaye lah, lau akk x tmpuh mnde2 nih sume dlm personal life akk, smpai ble2 pn akk sendiri x pndai wt keputusan..mak dn ayh jgn riso psl akk eh…tp bak kte somak, lau xdpt restu dr family..utamakn family dulu…klu itu yg die amanahkn pd akk, akk akn ikut…tp akk sentiase bedoa yg satu hr nt terbuke la pintu hati mak ayh….dh smpai mse akk wt pilihan sendiri..n akk tau slme nih pn, akk x penah bantah ape sje kemahuan mak ayh…akk akn cube ye..wt b, kite sme2 usahekn ye b…mse kite pnjg lg..Insyallah..lau ade rezeki kite, ade la k…cmne pn b ttp kt ati owg..kite sme2 buktikn pd family owg kite boleh…owg tau b masuk polis nih pn sbb owg n family owg..sbb awl2 lg ayh owg dh mention nk menantu polis kn..haih...xpe b, owg ttp sokong b..ape2 pn t.care kt cne..k..daaaa…mish u en.muhammad hilmi…

Yeyeh..Dpt Kol Lg..^_^

Salam..yeye..dpt kol lg dr die..07/02/2011 jam 4.52 a.m...hehehe...die dh byk kali upenye smlm kol aku..aku engt spe la..tkt nk angkt..hu2...nsb la aku xtdo lg...sbb menelaah policy yg smpai hr nih aku x paam lg haih...pening2...x sngke die tipun pg td...ktenye otw nk g subuh...heheheh...rajin dh die...hihi...hohoho..sore die dh garau..yelah stiap hr menjerit...tgn die dh luke2 dh sbb bumping kt jln tar...hahaha...besh burak ngn die hr nih..lalalala..pe pn t.care cne eh b...muahh syg sgt2 kt en.muhammad hilmi...adiossss...^_^

Abam-Abam Saye..^_^

Salam..hai u olzz..aku dh smpai mlk dah..ptg td bapak aku anta..kt umh niat ht nk balik cni berkobar..tp bile tgk mak ayh aku td, rse cm xmoh balik pn ade...haih..lepak prk 4 mcm2 yg aku dpt dr abam2 senior aku tuh...mcm2 yg aku tau ckit2 kesah drg....drg  nye crite lg hebat n pilu kot...masing2 ade history..bak kte abam mumi "cinta nih ade mcm2 epilog" ahaa..sedey kot kdg2 bile dgr cite drg..lagi hebat kot lau nk bandingkn ngn cite aku..alah, x seberape..cm knk2 ribena punye kesah..tp kesah drg dh leh wt novel..kbykkn nye psl "penantian"...org kte penantian tuh 1 penyeksaan...mmg pn bg drg yg still ternanti2 org yg drg syg...xde kabar...sntiase hitung hari..perghhh...aku yg bpe ketul hari nih jerk dh naek lembik..ni kn pulak drg tuh yg berthn2...uwaaa...pedih2...lepak prk4 wt aku blaja mcm2 psl drg...nmpk jerk drg cm tuh...tp dlm hati..dh knl rapat...hmmmm....abam mumi, abam razz, nur, boey...sume ade kesah masing2...kesah drg lak..uwaaaa...aku sndrik pn ley nanes kot...haih...drp drg sume la aku xmoh leweh2 lg..aku pn nk jd cm drg...kuat cmtuh skali...hehehe...pe pun, aku syg sgt2 kt drg...nk2 kt abam aku 2 org tuh...abam mumi n abam razz...rin doakn moge abam2 dpt jodoh yang baek k...muah2...^_^ tuk boey n nur...saba eh tempuh sume tuh...leb u...:">

Yeyeh..Die Kol Hari Nie...^_^

Hari nih 05/02/2011 jam 01.43 p.m..ank org tuh kol...heeee....padahal bru bape hr die x kontek aku dh cm org kehilangan lak..hahahahah...nade2 betuii...hari nih die kol tnye kabar cm bese, dgr mood hepi jerk cume penat..hr nih die crite gk laa...org2 kt cne pgl die "samseng" hahahaha..tuh la muke ganas sgt..nih mst otai kt tmpt tuh kn..pastu aku tnye die ade geng x? die jwb ade geng...ramai geng die..yelah org peramah kn...sng la dpt kwn...mulut pun becok jerk..hahahhaa...die td sme ngn kwn baik die ktenye..hahahaha...haaaa..the best moment part yg aku dgr dr die...die makin Temokkkkkkkkkk...yeyeye...sewonok aku dgr...hahahaha...mne x nye..mkn 6 kali sehari...rokok dh xde...die gtau sangap rokok...hahahha..pdn muke...suh benti awl2 xnk...haaa..rse kn...hihihihi...ok la tuh, aku rse lega kot dgr die kte cmtuh...engtkn die sakit ke hape..sbb aku tau die cmne..die tuh snang nk dpt teman...nk2 lau teman pmpuan...haishhhh..mmg cpt la kn....heeee...nsb cne just like him...tp yg shemale tuh aku xtau la kn..ituh kekompiusan jantina tuh...hahahahaha....hr nih mood aku hepi n bersemangat nk wt sume keje yg aku tangguhkan..yey, esok dh balik melakeee....hoi kwn2 gile aku...wait 4 meee.....^_^

Tibe2 Moral Down Hari Nie..=_="

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! hr nih aku btl2 moral down sgt...haishhh...aku biu2 model yg ade..sweet2 korean actress n singer..perghhh sume comei2...klu lah aku dpt susuk mcm drg kn besh...aku tau aku ptt bersyukur ngn ape yg ade..hurmmm...aku teringt pulak last kte die...kecikkn pe yg ptt..die balik nt die nk tgk...hurmmm...ble teringt cmtuh lak, aku rse cm down giler kot...rse cm aku x ckup sempurne bg die...aku mmg nk keje keras tol gk..sbnrnye aku pn nk cmtuh...mmg cita2 aku nk cmtuh...hurmmm...seyes..so, start drp nih aku kne nekad..xmoh mls...dlm mse bbulan nih aku nk cube...cube sedaye yg boleh...rmai gk kte aku cmnih dh ok..nk kuwos cmne lg...hmmm...bukan pe,aku nk balance kn pe yg ade kt aku nih...hope dpt la support...so, plan diet aku dh wt...so aku kne beringat la...hehehe...wish me luck...^_^ amin...wait 4 my change..

my.heart_wait_4_u ^_^

Salam...hai korg..hurm...hr nih cm bese la rutin aku kt umh mak aku..wt esaimen separuh pastuh mengadap chatting n berfacebooking...haishhh...tuh la rutin aku stiap hr...cpt2 la balik melake..at least aku dpt jmpe kwn2 gile aku tuh xde la aku kepingin kerinduan yg amt sgt stiap mlm psl die...huhu...hr nih asl aku juin perak 4 jerk, si boey spin lagu "luahan hati" nih...boey cm phm2 jerk yg aku ngh miss someone..hehehe...pastu bosan2 lepak room mlk 3 lak...hurmm..haruk pikuk gk la sbb si hawau2 tuh sume ade..hahahha...lme kot x lepak kt room ngn drg...so..ketemu lak epul n91 situ..sebuk buatkn id dak2 nih...id ym.*** ...so, si mat sparrow nih ley mtk id my.**** pe tah aku lupe...si epul nih leh lak wt kn..pe lg aku pn mngendeng la kt epul..sbb aku tau epul kn mmg token id..hahahahah...so aku mtk die wtkn id "my.heart_wait_4_u"...tibe2 mnde tuh terlintas kt otak aku...si mat smpai nk pk2 la die nk my. ape..hahaha...aku otomatik letak id tuh coz aku teringtkn someone yg pling aku syg...spe lg lau mukan hencik hilmi@smark...hr nih merayau room jerk keje aku....lepak cne cni...jmpe drg..sume tnye psl smark..hehehe..ade yg tau die pie..ade yg x...tp sume kte kt aku kne saba...heheheh...xpela aku ngaku yg aku still rse laen lg sbb die xde....dgr plak cite td kak fara, dady yot, abam ayie, kak vio lepak PD mlm nih...hmm..beshnyee..xpela, byk mse lg kn nk lepak ngn drg nt..hehehe...hr nih ngh busan2 leh lak aku tergoogle map tgk pulapol semarak tuh...tp aku biu gune satelit la..coz aku nk tgk bangunan sume..tp dpt tgk samar2 jerk...hurmmm..smpai cmtuh aku rindukan ank org tuh...bile la aku nk blaja tahan nih...xpe2...aku dh blik mlk leh kot...kwn2 gile aku ade.hehehe...kt umh nih stiap mlm asl aku dgr lagu "luahan hati" nih aku teringt kt die..aku renduuuuuuuuuuuu sgt2 kt die..hmmm...hope die kt cne ok...sbb tuh hr nih aku teringt nk post lagu nih kt blog aku...alaa...suke ati la spe2 nk kte aku minah jiwang ke hape..tp diz is myself..yg pntng aku x kcu org lain..hehehe...bile dgr lagu nih, teringt mse die sakit teruk tuh stiap mlm aku nyanyikn tuk die bg die terlena..sbb die xpt tdo thn sakit die tuh...alhamdulillah..die dh ok...sbnrye asl lagu nih wujud antare ktrg start dr aku post lagu nih kt wall fb die..ngeee...hehehe...aku pesan kt die suh die hapal lagu nih smpai dpt pastuh nyanyikn kt aku...tgh mlm tuh x silap aku, die kol aku...snyp je aku dgr..pastuh tibe2 aku dgr bunyi lagu tuh...pastuh dgr sore die nyanyi...heeee..tomeiiii....suke2...perghhh gedik aku nih..hahahha..gedik ngn die xpe..jgn org lain...die kte ngn aku die x hapal lg lagu tuh, tp die still nk nyanyikn tuk aku..hehehe...alaaa..aku mmg phm die dr dulu lg..mne2 lagu pn die suke ubah2 lirik...hahahha...lirik2 lak main talerr jerk...hahaha..tuh la yg wt aku gelak jerk bile ngn die..bile sakit hati..sakit betul..bile hepi..hepi btul..hahahhaa..mcm2 laaa...pe pun aku xkn lupekn lagu nih smpai bile2...x kesah la nk pgl aku minah jiwang ke hape...just 3 words...Do I Care??? hahahaha...daaaaa...^_^ misshhhh so muchhh en.muhammad hilmi...t.care there...my.heart_wait_4_u.....^_^

126 days more =_="

Salam..03/02/2011-jam 12.48 p.m…aku dpt pnggilan dr die through public..hari nih agk suram ckit aku dgr sore die..die tnye kabar aku then aku tnye kabar die…hurmm, die sakit..x brape sihat ktenye…bese la tuh..awl training mmg agk though..aku tau yg die pendam jer mse tepon td..cmne pun aku sentiase doakn yg terbaik tuk die..skrg tgl 216 hari lagi utk tgu die hbs training..pastuh nt die cuti semnggu n then posting keje…haishh..=_=” mmg kehidupan keje gobemen cmtuh kan..lain la private..tp keje gobemen rileks..keje duet masuk…lau private, once you are not sacrifice your time n energy, you will not get the benefit..cm keje private nih dgn kudrat la lau nk maintain in that position..aku saba n saba tgu die..setiap mlm teringt kn die..dh la brg2 brharge die sume kt aku..ptt la smlm sblm tdo aku ley teringtkn die..aku kte ngn diri aku, mst mlm tuh die teringt kn aku gk..x sangke siang nih die kol aku…hurm..Ya Allah, inikah jodoh ku? Kuatkan lah smngt die Ya Allah. Dn kuatkan lah smngt aku..aku dh jnji dgn die yg sem nih aku cbe dptkn AD..even aku tau yg sem nih agk tough tuk aku capai target die, but I’ll try my best 4 him n my family…n utk org2 yg sokong aku laa…nt ley dpt Mcd or kepci..yebedabedooo…^_^

yey!! 1st Call From Him..^_^

Tepat jam 12.54 p.m aku dpt panggilan dr no.pelik mne tah...hahahaha..Aku ragu2 gk nk angkt tkt hutang piutang yg slme nih buru aku kontek aku...perghhh nmpk sgt aku nih org suke berhutang..Pastu aku pk dlm hati aku cmne lau ank org tuh call aku? musykil2...Then, aku angkat la..sekali sore mcm kenal...aik? ank org tuh laaaa...Apekahh?? mse ngh beborak tuh mcm2 otak aku btnye kt die..tp dpt ckp kejap je...Dengar sore die hepi, ade kwn ktenye.."rakan-rakan" baru..hihihihii....ok la tuh, aku dgr cmtuh pn dh ckup ok..so, skrg aku dh rse lega...dr ari tuh gk tpk cmne la die kt cne..hahahahha...sengal la...dh la mlm smlm kne perli ngn adik laki die..haishhh..."sian die, 6 bulan keseorangan la...hahahha..." cettt...hahhahaa..xpe2, aku x kesah tuh sume..yg pnting tnggungjwb ank org tuh dh lepas..skrg tgl aku plak nk lunaskan tggungjwb aku...mslhnye tnggungjwb aku tuh cm berat je nk wt...hahahahhaa...tgk la cmne..aku cube jela usahekn..lau jadi, jadi laaa...hehehehe...klah, hr nih aku brsmngt ckit...smlm jela yg lunyai..haishhh...=_=" dh2 aku xmoh cite byk, nt kang ade yg menggelabah bce post aku nih..hahahaha...k all, t.care...^_^

Mc Flurry Oreo Satu!!! ^_^

 Abang...bg Mc Flurry Oreo 1!!! hihihihi...dlm byk2 eskrem kn..eskrem McD gk yg jd peberet aku.. Huh! mmbe2 giler aku -chub,julie,syaza,ain,dn sbgnye- mmg tau aku bukan lah penggemar eskem yg tegar..hahahah..Baskin Robin pn xleh challenge weh eskem McD aku nih...

coz hnye owg2 yg sntiase kt samping aku je phm yg aku nih "Hantu McD"...hahahaha...Bercerite psl Mc Flurry Oreo nih mcm2 yg terlintas kt otak aku nih.....asl singgah McD je, mst beli mende alah nih..lau ngh kaye laaaa...Nk ikutkn hati mau stiap hr aku g melantak mnde alah tuh...haishhh...Mcm ank org tuh taste wt petame kali...ayt die cmnih..."perghhh, sdp plak ai eskem nih"...hehehehe...So, pd spe2 yg nk amik hati tuh lau aku ngh mrh...ringan2 kn lah hati kamu utk belanje aku McD..hihi.. pe pun smpai bile2 McD ttp kt hati aku..."I'm Lovin It!!!"

I'll back off so you can live - G.NA ft. Junhyung

G.na :

I'll back off so you can live better

say it directly, looking at me

say it looking into my eyes

did you just say you wanted to break up and to end it with me?

(I know) You probably got a lady

(I know) You probably got sick of me

Eventhough the tears are rushing to me

I'll back off so you can live better, that us all I can say

I'll forget you so you can live better

The love that you tossed away, you can take it

Don't even leave a trace behind and take it all

Don't even say you're sorry and don't worry about me

Jun hyung :

(yeah) Sorry ma sweety

Your lips that told me that you were gping to leave

Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?

I need to stop you, the words don't go out

and you are already moving far apart

G.na :

(I know) You will forget me

(I know) I will really hate you

Eventhough you know everything

I'll back off so you can live better, that is all I can say

I'll forget you so you can live better

So that you'll be happy without me

The love that you tossed away, you can take it

Don't even leave a trace behind and take it all

Don't even say you're sorry and don't worry about me

You

The reason I lived

You

were all I wanted

You

It was me who only looked at you

Why?

Why are you leaving?

Why?

Why are you tossing me away?

If you were going to be like this

Why did you love me in the first place?

Do you happen to remember that day?

That day when we first met, I still remember it

The promise you made to me

That you will only protect me

That you will only love me

I believed your lies

I believed it

Did you really love me?

nononono

I'll forget so you can live better

One More Time..+_+

Hari nih aku sedey sgt2...last day die nk pie...seyes, nsb la aku dh smpai kmpung..cume aku balik mlk nt mybe aku rse cm lain je nt...xpela, aku cube la hidup tanpe die slme 6 bln nih...aku akn tgu die balik nt...moge die kuat smngt kt cne..aku kt cni akn berubah...terime kasih ats pengorbanan die pd aku...aku xdpt nk teruskn ayt lg..hurmmm......+_+ cayok2 eida...^_^

tak bule tido laa..haishh!! =_="

Sedey tau hari nih...sbb hr nih hr last aku jmpe en.Muhammad Hilmi..yelah, 6 bulan kot die nk pie 

tinggalkan aku..nk wt cmne..aku yg mintak sume nih...

Aku rse terharu sbb pengorbanan die nk pie pulis tuh utk mase depan ktrg..

Aku akn tgu die slme 6 bln nih...hati aku xkn berubah sme skali...aku akn cube hdup tnpe kne teman ngn die...Yelah, slme nih die yg teman aku wt ape pun..x kesah la mnde tuh kecik mne pn...sbb aku stress2 pun die gk yg wt aku gelak besa2 weh..hahahhaha...

Aku byk sakit hati dgn die pun, die still korbankn mcm2 utk aku...alaaaa...perangai aku pn sme gk...suke buat die bbulu, sakit ht ngn aku...hihihihi...so fair n square la..hahahhaha..

Spnjg die xde nt tpkse la aku sibukkn diri..aku kne belajar jge diri tanpe die..aku akn cube utk die

Sbb die pn dh kte akn cube dptkn title "en.pulis" tuh tuk aku...ala2...tomeiiinyeee....hihihihi...

sayang kamoo sangat2 en.Muhammad Hilmi..

salam...

hahahaha...sekian lame aku tinggalkan menjadi sorg blogger nih..mne x nye, blog lame dulu dh deactivate dah..cess!!! hahahaha..pdn muke kt aku gk...slmt tgl la pd www.hanyaku-imagination.blogspot.com....

sbb aku dh buat blog baru..dn akn byk cite bru yg akn kuar..hehehehe....^_^

k lah mari mulekn lagi...salam perkenalan pd sumeee....^_^